I'm so alone, it's killing me...

What am I supposed to do with this feeling? How do I make it go away? How do I heal what I can't touch or fix? I'm alone, my friends move away, my family doesn't get it, I'm alone. I'm alone, I'm alone! I'm so alone it's killing me. I don't know what to do... dating apps scare me, I don't know how to meet people in real life because I'm too busy to do anything but work, school, and homework. I want to be with someone. I don't want to be alone anymore. My tears won't stop, my head hurts, my body is tired. I'm overwhelmed with thoughts of the future, my work is getting in the way, but I need the money and trying to choose is almost impossible right now. I feel helpless and scared, and without anyone here to help me or to hold my hand, I'm lost and alone and sad beyond understanding. I don't know what to do with myself. Please someone just find me, find me and tell me I'm not alone anymore, because I'm sick and tired of all my friends leaving me, and my lonely life is killing me. Why did they all leave me anyways? Most moved away, some forgot about me, others chose guys over me, and the one that I thought I could live my whole life with, the one I needed the most, she left too. Why do I have to be so alone? Am I cursed to be alone? God I'm tired of this crap. I don't want to be alone anymore! There's nothing I can do though... what do I do? I'm begging... please make this pain stop.