The Archive...

It's been over 5 years since I started this blog, and there is not a day that goes by that I do not owe it my life. Coming out of insanity was like walking into a haze, a blur of reality that made no sense and even less of a desire to witness it. I was lost in that fog, watching people progress through their lives like nothing had happened, like my world was not, just moments before, about to be broken. If I had not created this outlet, this place to write my pain into, I don't know what would have happened and I truly am glad I never had to find out.

This place has held my pain, my torment, my sadness, my anguish, my love, and my happiness all in one small little world. It has helped me through some of my most horrible times and through the years, I can only hope that it has done the same for others. If I can be the voice that tells people they are not alone in their insanity, in their pain, in their "differences" from others, then I am all the more glad to have wrote here instead of in a journal I would have honestly thrown eventually for fear of others reading it. This place is funny in that way. It's on the internet, a place where no one truly knows who is reading your posts, but for me, it is hidden in that vast web of data where anything and everything is possible. This place is a secret I hide from those that have hurt me, that I don't trust, and those that I what to hide from the most. However, it is also an open book, left out to be read, by just about anyone who comes across it. In a way, that too makes me happy.

If anyone who reads my blog has been helped by it, please continue to read as my life progresses. After all, no matter what stage of life you are in, there will always be a need for a secret cove to hide your dark secrets in. It just so happens that my cove is available to anyone who goes looking for it. I hope all the best to anyone brave enough to live through life, and I extend unconditional gratitude to those who have read and known the pain within the words I write. We've all been through hell and back, but its those of us able to talk others through that journey that find true peace within ourselves.

Thank you for everything, and I look forward to the vast future before us.