And so...

It has all ended hasn't it. She's gone and there is not a single thing I can do about it. I felt like I owed her so much, so I gave her my everything, my all the time, my heart, and my friendship. Then, she found that she needed my existence no longer. I was nothing to her. She apologized, like everything would go back to the way it was and she would continue using me. I was just a tool for her when she transferred 6 years ago. I was the only one who was without a group. I was an outcast. She used that to her advantage and, even though being beside me would cause her trouble, she stayed for the time she needed me. I thought that she was a really good friend for staying beside me... I was wrong... and I wish I wasn't. I don't regret meeting her, she was my best friend... and in my heart, she will always be the one who stood by me in my time of pain and loneliness. I wanted her to be happy, so I thought that as long as she was happy, I wouldn't mind what she did. After all, she was the one who showed me what happiness was; she was my light in the darkness. Then, that light left, and I am glad I have grown able to stand up on my own. I wanted her happy, but she abandoned me, and I will never forget the way she looked at me when she left me for good. You chose him over me, and threw me away with the coldest of stares. I am weak to pain, and you hit me in my most painful area. You hurt me more than you will ever know; you don't deserve forgiveness, but I am unable to hate you. I am disappointed in you, and I will never see you again. Justine, this is my last goodbye to you... I only wish that this could have lasted longer.... I will always miss you, the way you made me laugh at anything, your smiles hidden behind your expressions, your kindness always making me feel better. I loved everything about you; my dear, precious friend, I will always remember you. When you fall, I won't be there to pick you up again. I just hope that he will be able to make up for what you will never gain back from me. I miss you; it was fun while it lasted - goodbye and farewell, I won't see you again....